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Tuesday, June 28, 2011

absence make heart grows fonder...

No, it never works for me... infact absence will only make heart grows tender, softer, blacken and eventually rotten... hehehe...

absence make hearts grows fonder... it always reminds me to one point in my life where i have to deal with absence in the most torturing ways ever. a week after my 15th birthday i've met with a boy to whom i thought will be my soulmate and will spend the rest of my life with him. I was so confident that he was the one until we were tested by a long distance relationship."balas la surat ni kalau tak sibuk" (20 years back sms and email , skype n facebook and whatsoever was not an option) i always end my letter to him this way...sound lame eh? .. like reply or not reply was okay.. i am your second priority and you can choose not to reply if you have some other things to do.. reply only if you have nothing to do... but the fact was more severe than that. I will spend my lecture lunch break , rushing back to the hostel TV room, a place where the letter were kept at the hostel...searching for my letter which was hardly be there everyday without fail.And after that, with the teary eyes, i would retreat myself at the back of the TV room building where nobody can find me, cried my heart out...a tortured long-distance relationship with his letter visited me one or 2 times in every quarter..dating not more than 5 times a year...and the rest of the time apart from that was just me , missing and guessing what he was doing everyday, was he sick or well, was he missed me ask much as i missed him..after 5 torturing years...i quit. The choice i ve made without turning back regardless of begging and promises to change... so that's it. I am the one of many who will turn a long distance relationship into a mere failure.. that's proven..

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

separuh jiwaku pergi

I really miss my significant half... encik datu mohd rithauddeen..cepatlah balik...another 58 days to go...

Monday, June 20, 2011

life with technology

how many will admit that facebook has control their life? not many i guess ... but infact it is.eg Breaking FB relationship is still as heartbreaking as breaking real relationship.Cursing and maddness in fb still bring the same effect as real cursing.life is so sophisticated everything you want other to know can be broadcast... revenge, hatred, angry has a very simple channel to be flowed...dosa kering pun lagi senang dapat.ways are much simple now but the effect is even bigger... everybody will know.

when my husband block my number from being able to dial to his number after an argument that we had, what cross my mind is what happen if i died at that time.. for example if i met with an accident and somebody try to dial his number using my handphone.. forever the person can never get hold of him and he will know that i have been dead maybe only after i have been almost rotten 7 feet under the ground.technology allows you to do many thing ridiculous and doesnt make sense ... sometime we act to satisfy our vengance without realizing the actual effect... technology is good ...only we must be wise to use it...

what triggers dream when it keep on come and go?

i have one dream or should call it nightmare(?) that keep on repeating for the past 15 years. I had it again last night. what actually triggers dream? i though we dream when we think about something too much... but honestly for the past recent years this thing never bother me as much as it did before... so what triggers dream when it keep on come and go and yet i dun give a damn about that matter anymore now. Many things are in my control and i control it well so far.why the dream never dissappear when the rain has washed away all the pain of yesterday?