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Monday, December 31, 2007

Fun for the kids

Kids movie treat

This month we went to Alvin and the chipmunks.the storyline was ok and kids like it. But as a conservative mum, I was not favour of the gesture and costume of the dancers in the movie. Kind of offensive la... tak senonoh betul.dah le masa preview sebelum movie tu preview citer redline yang penuh ngan aksi2 tak senonoh. Diorang ni kadang-kadang tak sensible betul. hehe... membebel sket....

Bukit merah at last

This is the second time we went to bukit merah. The first time somewhere in June (cannot really recall) , that time we spent overnight there. But this time it's just a short trip for the kids to the water park.

malas la nak citer lebih2 pasal bukit merah ni but for those who never been there and wish to know what they have there, feel free to visit their website at : www.bukitmerahresort.com.my ... ni dah kira iklan free untuk diorang ni... boleh dapat diskaun tak next time?

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Aidiladha 1428

20/ 12/07 to 25/12/07

Hmmm at last a week off from work and internet…This year we celebrated aidiladha at my hometown , Chabang Empat Tumpat, Kelantan.The original plan to go back home to deen’s hometown in KK has been call off till …maybe march during the school holiday… no final decision yet.

'Berkubang' session at Pantai Sri Tujuh. The Kids sure loved it....:) But after the session , Ain vomitted badly, most probably because she tertelan air yang kotor tu.But the doctor said if that's the cause she should have diarrhea too, which she did not.Luckily she recovered after a day.I was scolded by Deen for letting the kids play in the muddy and dirty water during his absence...haha..2 hari je tu...kalau lama lagi mahu berkurap semua anak2 aku ni.Excitement like this cannot be understand by my hubby who spent his whole life as a town boy.Orang bandar ni mana paham betapa syoknya benda2 cam ni...asyik mandi dalam swimming pool je mana ada thrill...Kecik2 dulu aku siap mandi dalam parit lagi...

This year i lost one dear auntie. She passed away at the age of 82 on 24/12/07, after Maghrib prayer. Al-Fatihah to her, May her soul rest in peace.

This is my bestfriend, Wan Azura, since the schooldays.We have been closed since form 1 in 1987. A chance to meet her and her family will be cherished forever. I still can remember the good times together, where we used to spend holidays dan weekends together during our university days. Sometimes, i went to UUM over the weekend, which always started on friday.... :) always ponteng friday class....hahaha.., and used to go to her account class.There was one time when the lecturer ask me and i just nganga...sib baik dia tak cam aku ni bukan student dia..apa taknya, kat dalam lecturer hall tu duduk depan sekali...then there was a time when she came to penang to meet me but she met with an accident. Ju... really sorry for that...Nasib baik calar je... kalau tidak nyesal tak sudah...kena langgar bas kilang lagi tu...ni kes nak mengejar aku yang memecut ngan motor kapcai aku tu le...We kept the secret to ourselves till now....sampai tuan motor yang dia pinjam pun tak tau motor dia kena accident hehehe...kami suh drebar bas tu repair motor tu sampai x de kesan...your mum know about it or not? :) ...

I was there to witness her first puppy love with an upper six student when we were in Form 1...so early...:). We were very much different, infact totally different. She was so friendly and easygoing while i'm a bit quiet and low profile.She , had long list of boyfriends during the school days while i never have any.Somehow above all the difference , we become closer each day.May be because i could talk as mush as she could....

Unfortunately hubby forgot to bring his sony handycam, so the picture was taken using my lousy razr v3x, which under low light could be worse than any other hp camera, eventhough it is 2.0 mpx.This is the best i can get out of the picture , hehe... i'm not good in using adobe photoshop and adobe image ready, so what i did was just put some auto contrast and lighting.Well... at least it's better than worse

A Short Interlude

A month ago, one thing triggers all those memories from the pass years. A short interlude, if i fail to tackle it delicately, would probably ruin my whole life time. No matter how old you are or how long you have been living in this world, it’s not easy if you have to handle untamed heart. A part of you know that you should really let go, while a part of you still cling to the memories, reluctant to just leave everything as a history. The fact is, the distance between happiness and torment is just a blink of the eye.

If hatred will erase all good memories of the past and forgiveness will make my heart fond of the good old times and drift my life into vain, then I will choose hatred rather than forgiveness.

Somehow this intermission in some way brings goodness to my life.It reminds me of how lucky i'm to have such a happy family, a great husband an a blessed kids. I should be grateful.Alhamdulillah.

It's about time to really let go...completely.

Finding Zest

My work life has been very dull lately. No more excitement and enthusiasm. Just routine. On the way back from Penang to Kelantan, I’ve vowed to Deen that I’m going to find the zest in my work during the break. Am I success? Don’t know yet. Wait until tomorrow. Being a senior Engineer not only meant that I’m senior in term of experience, but senior in term of energy level too. My energy level has been alarmingly low lately. I started to see my job as a burden. Where gone all those days when I can’t wait to finish my weekend just because I’m too excited to finish what I left on Friday. Where were all those years when I was voted the top performer, best contributor?

Huarggghhhh…!!!! Sometime I feel I’m not supposed to be an engineer anymore. I’m too old to compete. Even too lazy to think. Aku rasa macam ultraman masa lampu isyarat dia dah bertukar menjadi merah.Kalau ultraman boleh balik ke matahari untuk recharge power dia, mana la aku nak pegi untuk recharge energy aku nih....nak pegi matahari pun jauh sangat...kang cair pulak nanti..

Hapiness is what is good today for tomorrow to remember? Will write about it some other time…

Friday, December 7, 2007

Another countdown

My yummy yummy tiramisu cake...It's quite hard to find a halal tiramisu cake as most of the time the ladyfinger is dipped in rum.Be careful when you select one...

"Minggu depan bday nor .." Said Deen a few days ago.So another countdown started.Before i met him birthday was nothing.Just known by a few close friends, a quiet eat out, normally a treat from friends.Sometime i even forgot my birthday. He, taught me that bday must be celebrated with cake (and candle).And if the birthday not fall on weekend , both of us have to take leave...just for the two-of-us date without the kids, normally for a movie. but dunno whether this year i can take leav e or not since my leave dah abis...nak simpan untuk raya haji lagi nih...rasanya x boleh ambik cuti kot.

what goes up never come down.A famous ridle that always cross my mind every year when the bday is approaching.Tahun ni dah 33.I'm old now...a secondary school student can call me makcik now.if i married at 15 or 14, and my daughter married at 18, most probably i will have grandchild already... hahaha...Tahun ni juga maknanya dah nak masuk 12 kali aku sambut bday dengan deen, since dec 1996.3 kali sebelum kawin dan 9 kali selepas kawin.

me in my work uniform at the age of 32....

Birthday , eventhough hardly celebrated before i met deen, always bring me certain memories back.Whether it's just a coincidence, something big normally happened a few days before or after the birthday.Dulu ada sorang kawan aku pun selalu kata macam tu, selalunya sebelum atau selepas bday mesti ada sesuatu jadi kat kita, something big to remember (It happened at that time , that i rejected him 6 days after his 20th bday...an old childhood story....hehe...where are you now? may hapiness always be with you).

15/12/1989 was actually 4 days after my 15th birthday.Its the most memorable date ever. The date that i always remember, no matter how many times i tried to erase it from my mind.It's just stay there, fresh and untouchable.It's the date when i laid my eyes on someone, which after that change my path of life forever.18 years had passed since then.Now we are a grown up.adult, with our own life.But the memories of all good years and togetherness will stick forever.May his life will be blessed forever and may hapiness will always be his.

I just wish i can be a good muslimah, mum, wife, daughter,daugther in law and human for my coming 33rd birthday.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Permata Buat Isteri

Petang tadi tiba-tiba lagu permata buat isteri nyanyian kumpulan kopratasa on air masa on the way back. Setiap kali dengar lagu tu Deen akan kata "Ni lagu abang untuk nor". Dari dulu masa mula-mula kawin sampai la sekarang dah dekat 9 tahun kami hidup bersama.Honestly i never bother about this lyric.Just now maybe the only time i really go deep into the song and try to understand it. It goes like this:

Permata Buat Isteri
(boleh dengar kat sini)

Telah ku siapkan
Satu daerah paling sunyi
Dalam hati ini untuk kau isi
Sebagai isteri

* :
Untuk kau penuhi dengan kemuliaan
Seorang wanita
Untuk kau beri erti dengan kelembutan
Untuk kau hargai dengan kasih sayang

Ku ingin kau jadi wanita mulia
Yang tahu harga budi dan hati
Seorang lelaki bernama suami

kerana engkau isteri
Ku ingin kau mengerti
Bahawa hidup ini
tak semudah yang kita janjikan
Yang kita janjikan
Kerana kau isteri ku

yourtube clip untuk lagu ni kat :

Adakah aku mampu menjadi apa yang diharapkan pada seorang lelaki yang sanggup mencintai segala kekurangan dan kelemahanku? Seorang yang menjadi ubat dan penawar untuk hidupku yang lara dan jiwaku yang parah.Rasa macam nak tanya deen, antara semua perangai-perangai buruk aku selama ini yang manakah paling menyakitkan hati dia. Tapi suara rasa tak boleh nak keluar. tersangkut kat tekak je. Abang if you read this, please let me know.....
Semoga Allah merahmati ketulusan hati kita untuk terus bersama selama-lamanya.

Monday, December 3, 2007

An evening in Taiping

Bukit larut scenic view

Last sunday we spent a day in Taiping. The original plan should be bring the girls to bukit merah water park but since cha was not so well, we changed it to Taiping Zoo.After all the kids would like it no matter how many time we went there.There was an unfullfill dream that i always keep everytime we went to Taiping, i want to go uphill to maxwell hill. so today, deen try to make it come true.Ha..ha.. there's one when time i cried (and deen always make joke out of that...:) ,just because the ticket was finished before we could buy it.

waiting for the jeep uphill.Everybody still excited...

The journey uphill was quite 'wavy', it took about 15 minutes , but felt like an hour...Tapi bila sampai kat atas...alamak.... tak de apa-apa la...even bunga tulip pun tak de sekarang. nak pegi tempat bunga tulip tu bukannya dekat...10 minutes walking uphill.Frust betul la... tu la...sometime what we expect is not what we get. Dah pukul 4 baru turun,semayang then masuk zoo for an hour je sebab pukul 6 dah tutup.

Alani waiting for the jeep downhill...sleepy eh?

Have you ever feel so emotionally loaded until any simple stupid thing can burst you out into tears? I did yesterday.Not sure why , but the journey like this always remind me to all those tormenting years. Where i used to take a bus ride , to anywhere i feel like going just because i was stressed.Taiping was among the places i used to go.Just think about how 'merananya' aku masa tu masih boleh menyebabkan aku menangis bila-bila masa.No matter how long the history has passed, i am still the same old me.

So yesterday bila sirap yang aku order tanpa ais datang bersama ais, i just burst out into tears.Stupid enough? Deen try even scoop out the ice into the glass to make me happy.But actually i'm not crying over the syrup.Aku cuma rasa hati aku ni macam nak pecah je, air mata rasa ada kat tepi mata. bila-bila je boleh terburai. I hate to be me... i hate that i'm still the same old me...

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Mama's Bonus Treat

This year we have it at Damiral Grills for the first time.Normally we will turn to Victoria Station for a good steak... but since there're so many rumours about that restaurant nowaday, may be it's about time try something new...Restaurant ni org melayu punya...The price a lot more cheaper than VS.Eventhough the steak was not so tender (u have to cut it into small pieces before u can swallow it... haha), the sauce was not bad.Dinner for 4 just cost 94.42 (plus capuccino and tiramisu cake and ice cream for the girls).....less than half of the price if we have it at VS. Try to snap some picture but since my RAZR V3X performed poorly in the low light, this was only what we got.

Just now, before dinner i have a conversation with one old friend.It somehow bring me back to my old days, when my mind was in between. A part of me was eager to know what future would be while another part of me was still linger to the memories left behind.Lucky that i know, eventhough to lose someone was really hard, it's even harder if you refuse to let go.However some people just cannot let go...sebab tu ada antara kengkawan aku yang masih single hingga kini.For me ... no matter how painful the memories could be ... time would always heal the pain... and dry the rain...just give ourselves a second chance...It probably never be better, but at least just ...give a try...accept the destiny with your purest heart, hoping the happiness will be yours...life is just too short and we have to spend it wisely..