Deenor haberdashery - the manifestation of a dream

when i was small 2 things that i always dream... to be surrounded by plants and garden, living is a garden full of blooming roses and to do what i like to do most sewing ( and knitting and crocheting) and all those needlework. for some unknown  reasons i love needle and yarns so much. when i was young there was one non muslim fren who gauge that in the past life  i was either a tarzan ( who loves tree so much, and live on the tree too) or  one royal seamstress.... hehehe...i embroidery my first handkerchief for the art class when i was 8 and unlike other kids in the class i never stop since then..i sew and embroider my first pencilcase( with zippers too..:))  which received tons of compliments from friends and teachers when i was in standard 4. And still remember i did that using the remnants from my school uniforms. i pickup crocheting when i was 12. its is difficult to learn it bcoz my mum never know how to do it and neither were the people around me.i handmade a dress with crochet edging  for my then babysister ( now already 29) and people who see it never believe that it was done by a 12 years old. i still remember old ladies chit chated with each other and  said... now wonder , her grandmother was a very famous seamstress. i never get a chance to know my grandmother in person. she passed away due to cancer when my father was just 1 year plus. i learnt from old folks around me that she was so beautiful and talented, chased by many2 men but end up maried to my one eyed grandfather. she was once said  , the most beautiful lady in town and people called her "Mekmas kuning manja"( maybe she has jaundice or what i dont know.... hehehehe). my 4th sister ( not me ) is said to resemble her the most , and yes, i believe she is the most beautiful in the family.

so eventhough my talent never brought me far in that area...i still enjoy doing all those things until now. one thing never change. i dream to own my plant nursery and a haberdashery.i tried out of my busy schedule as an engineer, i try to take a break and open an online plant nursery(www.melur.com).  while still working as engineer ,oppurtunity is so huge and big and it was a big success at the beginning,  but i found it hard to coop. with more and more kids come in picture ( i have 4 now) . it is even harder.my mind is occupied with all those engineering jargons and kids and family stuffs  until i cannot shift it to other thing, so i slow down but never consider myself dropping it. i will pick it up one fine day....

then i moved to manegerial position, and my mind is relaxing from so  heavy thinking and i have to manage people. surprisingly it make me more stress. It is when i knit and crochet more and more. in this 2 recent years i have created more stuffs than what i had in last 23 years before.

Deenor haberdashery  is the manfestation of my dream. All the spirit and urge and whatever it is is translated into a reality.  I choose the name DEENOR the combination of my hubby and my name because he is one who always at my side during thick and thin.. he alwizz believe in me and never hinder me from achieving my dream . he always say that i am a person with big heart and dream and i will success someday ( eventhough i question myself WHEN??). Tomorrow is the opening day and i pray so much Allah will show the way and make it easy for me.

Nervous giler nak bukak kedai

Nervous giler nak bukak kedai ni... this is the first time rasanya aku rasa nervous giler sampai masa tulis entry ni pun rasa cam ada cold sweat at the end of my finger ... huhuhuh( melampaunya)... but seriesly memang nerves la... bukak kedai kat tempat cam ni bukan cam bukak kedai kat kampung hari tu... kat sini expectation very high... takutnya...rasa cam takut lagi dari nak exam SPM dulu... lately i am having a sleepless night... first sebab result stocktake yg aku manage kat tempat kerja telah menghancurkan masa depanku... sedeynya... then tiba2 tak boleh tido pulak sebab excited nak bukak kedai.

then this is the first time jugak aku urus semuanya on my own... kalau tidak asyik berangkai je ngan my hubby. start from beli kedai masa auction... pegi property auction redah sorang padahal aku tak tahu pun apa yang akan jadi masa auction tu... sampai le order benang dari jepun, turki, cina sume aku buat sendiri... huhuhu... hubby asyik excited ngan superbike baru dia je...ngeh..ngeh ..nyampah aku. Tapi Alhamdulillah urusan pembelian kedai dan setting up kedai setakat ni berjalan lancar walaupun aku kini kopak giler...harap2 percaturan aku ni sesuatu yang tidak sia2... masa bukak kedai kat kampung dulu abis dalam 20 k jer..apa taknya sewa kedai pun 250 jer sebulan , duk kat ujung tanjung patutla bisness mandom je... tapi kali ni rasanya berlubang abis poket2 termasuk akaun2 yang tak seberapa tu pun berlubang2 juga..bak kata suamiku..jangan pinjam along yer... nanti along carik abang...tapi alhamdulillah gak setakat ni aku berjaya tidak meminjam dari sesapa kecuali dari akaun ASB and tabung haji aku je.... in future tak tahu lagi.. Rabbi Assir la tu Assir ( Ya Allah permudahkanlah dan jangan disukarkan)

opps by the way nama kedaiku itu: DEENOR HABERDASHERY ( harap lidah anda tidak tergeliat bila menyebutnya) terletak di tingkat 3 kompleks bukit jambul penang... depan escalator  sebelah dengan kedai baju cina yang besar tu ( BUTIK LENO). jemput  singgah ye...fb link at :http://facebook.com/deenorh

How a dream shattered

how a dream shattered into pieces... why..

end of the year

salam all.... lately i am bz like buzzy bee.... with all the end of the year goals and milestone review... and total stocktake on the 3rd of january ..there is no other way we can end this year by having lepak time on the eve...with close colleauge or so.. like other years. this afternoon one of the engineers said to me... this year is the first time we end of the year working so hard until cannot go for any break all because of your stocktake... my stocktake??.... no...no...no.... its the company stocktake where i am the main incharge for  my area including my department which is material... huhuhu....when you talk about stocktake who else can be more scary than the manager of the material department where lies all the small little tiny piecepart including of transistors, capacitors , diods... all all the jargons...so basically that's it... my whole week gone with my eldest complaint " hari2 makan fast food...."... what to do everyday mama come back from work at 9:00 PM n above ony... she added... but the good thing when mama not cooking is i dont have to clean the dishes.... lazy girl...

so this is the end of the year... just notice that when we are older... changing of the year is not as much exciting as when we are young...maybe because walking downhill...faster towards our end of life... at this age of 37...i feel gratefull with all that i have... Praise Allah for all the gift in my life. Last weekend , sneaking out from the end of the year  bz schedule... i manage to went back to my hometown and accompany my father to his hospital appointment as usual.Looking at him at this age i just realize that i Love my parent so much and i always regret because i cannot be with them all the time.... hmmm...dun want to talk about this down side of my life.

so here i am... looking forward not as eagerly as year before to welcom 2012... i just hope that i still have many years to spent with my dear darling hubby in this life and spread and share all goodness in life with people around us... so ... nothing much ...good bye 2011.... welcome 2012...

universal studio singapore

hmmm...at last sampai jugak kami sekeluarga ke sini..tapi mak aih....ramainya orang bersusun..kata hubbyku yang dah pergi ke universal studio US ( kami belum lagi...:-() sama je ramainya orang ngan kat sana. kebetulan time kami pegi tu firstday cuti sekolah , semua tengah peghak nak bercuti.... kami beli tiket online so masa nak beli tiket tak dela kena beratur sangat...tiket untuk kami sefamily ( 2 adults and 3 kids ), baby tak kira ... ialah sing 300, masa tu exchange ialah 1 sing = myr2.5... kalau convert duit kita jadi 750 la... tapi the trip worth the money. kalau hari biasa tiket untuk adult ialah S 64, kalau weekend jadi S74.

hoh..masuk masuk terserempak ngan Marilyn monroe kat hollywood walk..tapi tak sempat nak tegur... lagipun malasla nak tegur nampak dia sibuk sangat bergambar sana sini...lepas tu nampak encik shrek...anak2ku punya la excited... tengah2 excited nampak shrek tiba2 encik frankestein muncul... lintang pukang lari bebudak tu. destinasi pertama kami : Far Far Away. nampak je dekat depan mata tapi memang far2 away la.... 40 minit beratur berlingkar2 macam pagar sesat kat depan istana Loard Farquard( betul ke eja nama ni?... kang kena murka pulak) kat duloc. terngiang2 lagu "Welcome tu Duloc such a perfect place " masa beratur tuh... panas beb... tapi baby cam ok je.. babanya yang penat dukung dia... dia cool je...masuk2 je kat dalam castle tu tetiba dengar guards or usher USS menjerit dengan kuatnya ..ingatkan apa..rupanya ada segerombolan makhluk tak sekolah yang potong q. ish..ish...aku tak paham betul dengan bangsa2 cam ni... orang ngan baby pun beratur cam biasa diorang yang cergas yang sihat walafiat muda2 semua tu lagi tak boleh nak beratur..selepas kena tengking dan marah depan orang ramai( padan muka diorang) akhirnya diaorang terpaksa beratur semula dari belakang . Bak kata the usher : ALL THE WAY BACK... huh puah hati...baru korang tau... harap2 bukan orang Malaysia... buat malu jer.. nampak cam bukan..nampak cam orang yang kalah bolasepak hari tu... hhuhhuh...moral of the story : DONT MESS with the Q

dalam far2 away kami tengok movie shrek 4D.Its really fun tapi lebih fun kalau duduk atas kerusi biasa sebab ada impact masa the carriage terbalik and bergerak laju tetapi memandangkan baba pegang baby kami duduk kat stationary seat . Seat ni tak bergoyang..yang lain pun nak ikut aku jugak ..pehal budak2 ni... pastu komplen2 tak best cam orang lain...( budak2 ..mesti nak duduk ngan mak jugak).yang bestnya show ni... boleh rasa donkey tu bersin terpercik kat kita... creepy giler masa kat graveyard tu rasa labah2 kena kaki kita... tak mo citer lebih2 la ... nanti korang pergi sendiri ye....then kuar kami tengok donkey life show ...quite fun...lepas tu bebudak dah lapar..check2 goldilock cafe tu halal..so kami belasah makan kat situ la...nak solat ,takde dedicated surau. so kami ambik wuduk kat toilet yang dekat ngan hollywood walk tu(ada satu yang ada air) then solat kat dalam loby yang dalam baby room tu (lupa lak nama dia apa)

lepas solat

Beris Lake Vineyard (Ladang anggur Tasik Beris)

Yesterday, we have spent time travelling up to Sik kedah to The Tasik Beris Vineyard. Here's some picture there. The story will come up soon when i have time...(**teethy smile**)
the vineyard is located in district of SIK in Kedah. more info at: Beris vineyardThe grapes was damn sweet and fresh. I think this is the most delicious grapes i've ever eat in my entire life ( hohoho....am i exagerating?). the young hand is also eager to grab the grapes. She ate a lot..she's the one who finished it.

Date to pick the grapes? hehehe...quite effective reminder

puding kastard laici

i just got this simple recipe from a fren. just try it out this morning for breakfast: you need
1. 1 can of evaporated milk ( any brand will do but i use ideal)
2. i can of lychee with the syrup,i cut the fruit into smaller pieces
3. 5 table spoon of custard flour( i used lady's choice)
4. 3 table spoon of swetened creamer ( i use teapot brand)

mix everyting in a bowl until all the flour dissolve.Heat it slowly until it is thickened.pour it in any mold , i use round cake tin, let it cold and cut it.

rain and thunder

plan B
I had this plan b roughly drafted in my mind since long long time ago. if someday mylife will turn upside down, if whatever i had plan in my plan A never turn as it should be i will work put on my plan B. Yep...it's good to have this plan B. At least if something wrong happens, i will not turn into depression state or losing my ways( hopefully). What worries me now is i keep on thinking about this plan B more and more lately. Last time i will think about this plan only when i was sad..dishearted or dissapointed but now looks like i keep on thinking about this everyday for the past few weeks...what had happened to me?

this is my plan B:
1. I m gonna drop everything that i hold, my position, my carier everything lah..except my kids
2. I m gonna sell everything i owned , my house , my car... my whatever i have at that time lah..
3. 1 m gonna run away from the place i lived.
4. i m gonna fork out every cents that i have in my accounts.
5. I m gonna buy a piece of land at a cold and high land.. ( no matter where)
6. I m gonna open a flower nursery and grow lots lots of flowers
7. i m gonna run a simple and quite life while raising up my kids
8. i m gonna take care of my parents and live together with them
9. i m gonna bring myself closer to my Creator and live a life till the day i die....

sayang itu untuk dirasai bukan sekadar ucapan... kalau sudah susah untuk dirasai lagi..mungkinkah maknanya ia sudah tiada?

stuck

some of the thing in life..just like a nightmare will keep hunting you no matter how much you feel you have been recover from... some of the dream( or nightmare)will just come and go as it like anytime it like no matter how much we ignore it... it just will come... and go

Asam pedas tumis

Its has been a while since last time i share my way recipe with u guys..yesterday i made an asam pedas ikan patin that turned out great... lagi sedap dari yang pernah i buat...hehehe... but actually i've left out 2 things that should be in asam pedas, the lemon grass and fresh turmeric ( kunyit hidup). Still it taste great... so dont worry it you dont have those 2 , you can still make a good asam pedas.

here is the original recipe for asam pedas ( my own) so i dont have a accurate measurement ( agak2 je)

1. a few potong of ikan , any of your like... ikan patin, ikan pari, ikan nyot nyot, ikan terubuk...all will do.
2. shallots and garlic..shallots should be more that garlics... dont put to many garlics.
3. Asam pedas essentials of fresh turmeric, lemon grass(serai), daun kesum( i use alot cause it eat the daun kesum... sedap),cili kering or serbuk cili any will do, tarmarind jus or air asam jawa and a lil bit of belacan if you like it.

how? shallots, garlics, serai, turmeric and chilies - finely pounded. heat the pan, pour cooking oil and fry the belacan first, then tumis all the pounded stuff until naik baunya... hehehe... then masukkan air asam jawa and daun kesum. bring it to boil.perisakan with garam and gula, then masukkan ikan , masak hingga ikan masak la...done